Wyatt Christmas

This is my first post in months. Do not expect anything exceptional. It is just a flexing of muscles and hailing the angels from a place as fluffy and white as their home cloud,  and a singing “I Am Alive.”

I awoke this Christmas morning to a foot of fresh powder in the wooded outskirts of McCall, Idaho.

“Was this intentional?” you might well ask, knowing the astral ramblings I’m given to in this life.

I’d say, “Mostly.”

Living the dream:
White Christmas? Check.
New Snow? Check.
Is all calm? Yes.
Is all bright? Getting there; still snowing.
Before light, I took a huff puff in the new fluff, out to the road where I could walk on a plowed surface, spend less energy heaving the knees chin-ward with each step.  I wandered about chanting into the muted scene, the slick stream of pavement running through it providing the only reverb. Standing still in the dark, performing Qi Gong for the Devas, I watched morning inflate the sky.  So beautiful… and quiet, even as a little CAT snow-mover began shuttling around busily, like R2D2, making spirits brighter, and making the way safe for the humans waddling around, swaddled in down, through the near-zero-degree air.
I ducked into the lodge where my friend Jack and others were, by now, breaking fast on the spread of edibles inedible to me. I continued out onto the deck to Lift Chi Up and Pour Chi Down, as pines reached for the sky and snow for the ground. Country Christmas songs cut a warm and tinny spiral of sound into the frigid air, and I felt my heart melt open as I blended with a world both arctic and plasmic and as Glenn Campbell’s transcendent “Silent Night” redeemed humanity.
For a few timeless moments I held all the beauty and calamity, the peace and the paradox, past and future, tenderly. Simultaneously: I recalled how, years ago, while caroling on an equally freezing night, I’d for the first time really heard the deep verses of these Christmas classics, horrified by the violence hidden there. And now, seeing with different eyes, hearing with different ears, scooping my palms through the Breath of Creation, I heard the best of these songs, felt the timeless resonance of “O Holy Night.”
Don’t let the absence of sun, sand and palms fool you. This is an oasis from the colossal conundrums of my life. Once again I have allowed myself to be lifted out and reborn, if only in a bubble, to remember the why of life.
I may be here, ostensibly, to record some vocals on Jack’s holiday CD, and to capture photographs of “New Snow,” the title of the album. But I am here at Christmas, the celebration of light returning in the darkest time of year, in one of the darkest times of my life, to remember and harness the perennial rebirth and hope of this season, to remember and reclaim the Christ within and without.  I AM ALIVE. Today, that is Miracle enough.
That segues into a “poem” (below) captured from my day of travel to Idaho. But first the obligatory selfie echoing another of songs we’ll be singing on this week: “Thank You.”  Already a Classic.

 

Xmas@Airport.hum

Cold in the Breezeway…

But inside, the toilet seats never cool in the Women’s

as the line snakes down two gates to the Starbucks.

Gazing over a sea of bowed heads,

I practice QiGong in a corner.

I’d get more views on YouTube.

Perhaps the single fellow watching will post it

for the rest of the room to see.

I’m touched that an old friend braves

Xmas at an airport

to come share a hug and a smile on my layover in a once-home town.

Matching his kind exertion,

I pass through security twice.

The scanner gives me a headache,

And what passed in Albuquerque is searched in Phoenix.

What does pass while I am here is a tax bill– so unspeakably corrupt

that, for all his words, statistics and volume,

Bernie Sanders goes unheard on CNN,

And I throb with the undigested, indignant impotency of throngs I don’t even know,

…their thumbs tapping away on their glowing pacifiers.

Everything hurts. But I AM ALIVE.

It’s hard not to object; but I am alive.

I need no I-Phone; this body

provides its own distraction.

There is no airport mode.

I cannot turn it off:

I am ALIVE.

On another plane now,

Sandwiched on an exit row between peanut and pretzel.

Napkin says:

In a world of No, we’re a plane-ful of “yes.”

Yes. The plane is full.

The crossword is full.

My head is full; my mind is empty.

More hope in my pocket than my heart.

But I am alive.

The desert hills out the window

loom in a dusty haze, barren

as the moral landscape.

No hope outside.

Must find it within:

I AM ALIVE.

ml 12/20/17

Alive… and grateful for my friends…

Jack Brown

Why Wyatt? Wyatt is the name of our host at  Bear Creek Lodge, who given his size and elusiveness might actually have been part Bear.
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